Thursday, February 24, 2005
hihix.. i long time nv update my blog liaox.. miss mi mahx?? keke ... tis few months lots of changes was made in my daily life.. like where i normally hang out?? The friends i am wif now .. the place i go on saturday n sunday .. now .. i dun often go out liaox.. once i go out .. i will reach home bout 7 or 8 ... In school .. i am no longer running here and dere .. joining different groups of friends everyday .. now i am alwayz wif Li xin, Xu jie, Peck si, Wen jing and Li ting .. haha .. nowadays .. saturday n sunday .. i will go church .. the oldself of mi .. love to run here and dere and love to sweat .. the present mi dun like it ani more .. but i will still feel very good after sweating .. tis few dayz i did sth dat will surprise the pple hu is close to mi .. i quit volleyball n joined symphonic band .. Surprise huh? The old of mi .. will prefer sports den music .. but now .. i prefer music den sports .. so fast february gonna end lerx.. i like my present lifestyle .. no worry .. no care ffer much tings .. i nid to care is onli my sch tings n friendship (i won't care ffer other frenship onli in sch) recently .. i tink i lost a good fren/lesbo dat is Aisah .. after i broke up wif condrey .. she seems cold to mi .. she seems to change .. her atitude reali sux .. she turned cold ... but i dun care bout dat ani more .. cux i dun often skate ani more .. and i dun hang out ard the rink ani more .. since the day i broke up wif COndrey ... real lots tinga around mi change... i notice how i neglected the frens in sch around mi .. i didn't even spend time wif my sch frens .. but now.. can sae single bahx.. i spend most of the time in sch .. and i got closer to my sch mates .. but afew dat hates mi .. still hates mi .. but I DON'T CARE ... present mi .. won't get angry easily lerx.. cux i juz dun care ... i dunno why i change into a ger like tis .. but nvm bahx.. dun bother .. today was the cross-country .. i love it .. i aimed for the first 12 ffer the trophy last yr n tis year .. but failed .. i got into the first 20 .. lolx.. but i still do my best ffer next yr .. tis few days .. a ting bothered mi .. dat is a secret dat is kept in mi ffer a long time .. but tis secret cannot be revealed n mux not be revealed .. lolx .. juz hope one day .. the secret will disappear bahx.. =) ... time to go do my hw liaox.. take care everyone!! love ur!! especially my dearest kor kor Junlong (i am bias..lolx..) God bless!
yest .. i broke up wif condrey .. dat is my suggestion .. he alwayz ask .. why i wanna break up .. reasons is .. i wanna gain trust from my mother again .. i wanna concentrate on study n i doesn't wanna hurt him ani more .. but i dun bear to but in e end i still did .. for the sake of both of us .. i felt tired to be in a relationship ..real tired .. a moment .. i will tink whether did i hurt him or wat ever .. or did i neglected him .. he ask mi b4 dat y i rather choose frenz den him when i am goin out in a group .. my ans is bcuz i am still young .. i nid frenz around .. i can accompany him ani time .. but frenz .. can dey alwayz go out if dey wan? Wish he will understand wat i mean bah .. he ask alot of tings .. but most of dem is bcuz i am running away from e truth ..
today i got a vb tornament wif peicai sec .. lost e first round by 3 score .. n e second round by i tink 14 .. b4 dat .. i trained my upper service .. till i injured my hand .. but e repay is in e match .. i am said to use lower arm .. but not upper arm .. which is e services .. dat sentence has broke my heart.... now .. i isn't typing fast .. my rite hand hurts .. reali hurts alot .. haiz .. i am reali sad today .. not doin hw today .. even get scolded .. i dun care ani more .. :'( ... my hand reali hurts alot le .. i tink i beta stop here .. it is getting worse n worse .. haha .. take care my frenz out dere .. bye ..
Thursday, January 06, 2005
Long time i never write le .. tis few dayz .. i have been quite sad .. e reason is very simple .. is bcuz i moved to my mother place to stay .. no more staying wif my grandma .. i reali miss staying dere .. i am happy dere but not here .. since e day i stayed in my mother place .. i am sad .. very sad .. my heart seems to be broken .. haiz .. ='( ... e relationship i'm in .. is okay le .. no prob .. no worries .. somehow i dun understand y my mother can't get along wif ani of e family member .. not even my brother dat can tolerate lotz .. now a dayz .. lotz of tings dat my brother , my grandma n mi agrees juz onli my mother dun agrees ... she is so stubborn .. hate dat! I AM NOT HAPPY STAYING HERE!!! in around two weeks time .. i gonna have a volleyball tornament so my coach is training us so hard dat i am reali tired !! but is okay .. i had fun .. heez! tis few dayz .. cuz of moving to my mother place .. i am reali very tired .. after skool will be around 6+ .. reach grandma house around 7 .. den i still gotta eat and bath .. is around 8 .. den still gotta do hw .. is bout 9+ .. den still gotta go to my mother place .. (by bus!!!) .. tis a torture!! i am damn tired .. i write till here bah .. bye .. tc!
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
halo ... pple out dere ...my com have broke down so won't be updating often le .. tis few weeks ... alot of sad tings happen .. i didn't noe wat to do but luckily i got my best friend to seek for they are Gina and Aisah .. thnks alot friends ... tis few weeks ... i didn't slept well .. almost everyday i got nitemare .. although i ask myself not to care but my mind juz seems to be distracted by the matters tt is happening ... some how .. tis few dayz i couldn't concentrate much .. didn't noe wat to do .. i felt tired too ... reali very tired of wat's happening ... is like the same ting happening again and again juz tt is on the diff pple and the person is some kind related to mi .. hmm .. decided not to tink ani more .. be carefree tt's more important .. (Dun wanna be old so fast .. bleah !) -smileZ- tink write till here bah .. tc .. Will alwayz love him .. and i do love him from my heart! (face red liao .. jkjk)
Saturday, November 06, 2004
sorry for not posting for such a long period ... knewing i stay in Express .. i was happy .. but wasn't realli happy cuz some personal tings happen too ... i wasn't satisfied wif my perfomance tis year .. i feel tt i can get beta grades than now wat in my report book .. but at least i did stay in Express wif a last min work .. tis few dayz ... mi starting to go back as last time le .. starting to jump and laugh le .. finally .. no trouble ...cannot sae no trouble bah .. but less trouble ... not reali sae as trouble bah .. can sae is problems .. mi finally can join the Guitar course which i wish for a long long time .. i was contented tt mi and condrey is still together without ani arguements or quarrelling happening in between us ... i am waiting for the coming 8th month ... i am also waiting for the day when it is christmas and could go orchard to see the lights ... mi hoping percentage is high ... fear of dissappointment is also very high ... but all i could do is juz to pray bah .. love him ... today .... in the morning .. went to sommerset mrt to wait for Gina wif Condrey .. as we are goin out .. but i muz reach home by 5.30pm ... i was so surprise when i noe i muz be home by 5.30pm .. normally is 7 or 8 pm .. didn't wanna reach home so earli so request goin skating ... Gina , con and mi went to long john to have our brunch? then went to the arcade awhile then con and mi went to his house to get his boots .. and Gina went heeren to meet her friends or friend bah .. after getting his boots .. we went Jurong , the rink there .. and waited for my mum .. for quite a time bah .. and went in about 4pm .. the time when my mum reach .. skated till 7.45pm and mum came to mi and told mi she is goin dinner wif her bf and someone .. as the someone is treating them .. so she gave us 10 bucks.. we went dinner and was told to reach home by 9.20pm .. i was happy tt i could stay longer wif con ... ;) ... hmm .. now is about the tonament tis week .. monday , wed and fri .. was quite a sianx game bah .. although i met strong opponent .. cuz i felt tt our team is weak .. our team members alwayz have quarrels..they dun have a team work ... haiz .. btw.. in a sentence .. we lost very badly ... hmm .. about the 22nd BBQ at east coast park .. my class gathering .. i dislyk it.. i am incharge in all .. so stress .. haiz .. and the wen hui tot herself great wanna do all the tings herself .. haiz .. but no matter wat ... is my job.. my responsibility .. so gotta tell wen hui still .. haiz .. change sub bah .. tis few weeks .. reali happy .. most happy is i am still wif condrey!! haha .. crazy mi ! bleahx! tink i write till here le .. wanna call him .. haha ..buaiz ..
juz now ... my mum called mi .. and cried saying mi making grandma upset and lotz of crap .. but does she noe .. she is the one hurting grandma the most?? Does she noes .. most of the time .. grandma cried not cuz of mi but cuz of her? She doesn't noe and pushing all blames on mi .. saying all my faults.. she sae .. now she felt reali very tough .. but did she ever tot of my feelings too? Did she noe y i dun wanna stay at home? Does she noe y i dislyk staying at home? She didn't .. but juz saying mi love goin out .. she said tt y can't i stay at home .. i have father and mother not dun have .. but does she even i have a father and mother ... it seems like i dun have .. my father .. i see him how mani times one mth? sometimes i dun even see him for mths .. my mother .. i onli see her on fri , sat and sun .. but not alway tis 3 dayz .. sometimes ..onli see her once a mth or week ..although my father give mi money .. although my mother give birth mi.. but did they ever see mi grow? did they give mi a complete family? NO!! since i was born .. seeing them quarrel everyday .. no peace .. i reali cannot take it ani more .. reali cannot .. i dunno wat should i do .. i am reali tired !! Reali very very tired..
